Sunday, August 20, 2006

Everyone Wants Attention...Including Me

HERE'S MY FIRST OFFICIAL ENTRY into the blogging world of internet geeks, housewife whores, kinky accountants, sophisticated racists, and neurotic, bipolar Asians like me. To be more specific, a Fil-Am in Las Vegas. I have read some blogs out there; of course, most were boring as hell, but there were a few that stood out to me. Mainly it was because they had deep insights, shallow perceptions, or just plain dumb, stupid, and crazy. Those are the sites that attracted me the most. They had something important to say, or nothing to say at all. And of course, there were those that was just boring to death.  I didn't care much about the blogs because it was just factual description of events. Boring, boring, boring. If you've seen the movie American Beauty, then you know what I'm talking about when I say there's nothing worse than the ordinary.

So here' my humble attempt to join this community. I've learned from the blogs, in the replies and comments section that if you are not ready to be judged, then you should stay out of sight. There can be cruel comments, and I'm ready for all that. Bring it on! I have been judged, beaten, scorned, burned, criticized, laughed at, mocked, and whatever word you want to fill in here over and over, so your comments will be more than welcome here. I do have feelings, but trust me, I process them very well. Better to get the truth out, than to hide the truth. Hmmm, what's that movie, or is it from the Bible, where we learn that "the truth will set you free." Yes, better to have some kind of confrontation, discussion, and disagreement about certain issues, than to hide it. Hey you might bottle it up and explode. And in these days of terrorism, explosions are not a good thing.

OK, I know by now, you're probably saying, "boring...boring...next..." Well if you've read this far, you might as well finish it. I'm almost done for my first ever entry. Okay, like I said earlier, must discuss thoughts, ideas, and the why's. Stay away from the factual discussion of events.

So here it is: my first official blog thought.

SELF ESTEEM. This is a good place to start, since we all deal with this every day of our lives. It's also a great place to start because, in a way, blogging is way of getting attention. Otherwise, we would all be doing the traditional "dear diary" with a lock and key and hide-under-the-bed-when-done method. So yes, blogging is our way of letting the world know who we are, what we think about, and why we do the things we do. So to a certain extent, we are looking for attention. We are looking for someone to stumble upon our blog, make a comment, hoping for a nice one.  It's our way of self-validation, for someone to say, "I read your blog, and I understand you." And for those people who are going to make comments on grammar, I'm not a "grammarian". I'm writing with thought-of-consciousness, where whatever comes to mind, I will type, and I am not going back to edit or delete as much. You're more than welcome to make fun of my grammar, but it would be much better if you made comments on the thoughts. You're more than welcome to resort to name calling, if you want to be childish for a moment, but it would be much better if you just attacked the ideas.

So yes, in a way, I'm here because I want attention too. I want people to know what I'm thinking. And along the process, I hope that I would inspire someone, or at least open a discussion on topics that I care about. Who knows, we might solve world hunger through these discussions. Okay, that's it blah blah blah for now. I'm getting bored of my own topic here. Like playing in the casinos, it's knowing when to walk away.

2 comments:

Ederic said...

"I read your blog, and I understand you."

Joke lang.

Gusto ko lang maki-usyoso at makisalubong sa iyong pagdating sa blogging world. :)

AIEPRO said...

It has been seven years since then. I stopped blogging. Now I am revisiting.