I think I will lay off the topic of Philippines and its wonderful flaws for a while. It's causing me unnecessary stress right now. I am so far away from the country, yet I am highly affected by it. Why do I care so much? I think I got my caring side from my grandmother on my father's side. She is such a caring woman that she is always on the side of the poor, the underprivileged, the sick, the needy, and the like. Me, I'm the same. Sometimes this can be overwhelming though.
No matter how much I want to run away from it, to not really care, to just want to do my own thing, to just have fun carelessly, whimsically, freely, to be nobody, to hang out, to chill, and what have you, this I-care-I-should-do-something attitude always follows me. Whenever I see unfairness, injustice, inequity, the rebel in me comes out. I start to grow either a horn and a tail, or a halo, depending on the occasion. Sometimes, I just want to not care. Sometimes, I just want to live my own life, unaffected by the world around me.
It's not that I want to give up on this effort to better the world; I know I can't do it alone. I know that the only way to reach it and be satisfied with it, is to touch a persons life, one at a time. I've heard of those jaded individuals who no longer want to do anything, who chooses to not participate anymore, who decided to join the bandwagon, because they did not see their ideals come true. Too idealistic. Me, there must be pragmatism to all these efforts. I don't intend to change everyone and how they think. My intention is to just change one person's mind at a time. And hopefully, there will be that one person who will make a great difference in people's lives.
So thus, my blog will rest on the Philippine topic for a little bit, till I get fired up again. In about three weeks, I will be back in the Philippines, trying to build my business. I will be there six months to a year, and who knows, I will have plenty of things to write about. I'm sure I'll see something everyday that I can definitely have a comment on.
Note to self: write two posts a day when I'm in the Philippines. One positive. And one negative. Good balance. In life, everyone must find the middle ground. Otherwise, they are either high up on their laurels, in fantasy world, or lacking enough reality.
So yeah, I am going to take a break on the topic of the Philippines. Major headache sometimes. That is what I get from being a political science major and a political activist in the US. I should have stuck to the math and sciences. At least I could have found an lonely office corner somewhere figuring out equations. But then again, things happen for a reason.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
A break on the topic of Philippines and the Pinoys
I believe in love, justice, equality, and life. I believe in the pursuit of happiness. Above all else, I believe in God. I started blogging since since August 18, 2006. I am not the same person I was once. My thoughts, perspectives, and opinions are different now.